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Sunday, 27 February 2005

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I've moved.

Monday, 21 February 2005

483.

Last week I finally got to meet my LJ friend VALERIE. She used to live in Cupertino but moved to China! So since she was in town we decided to surprise Celine and Nadia at school. SORRY Thao, John, and Loc. I'll make it up to you guys.

Afterwards Stephanie came over and hung out with me. We talked for THE longest time. She should have slept over. I'm sorry for keeping all the things that happened in the past inside, but like I said, I thought it was for the best. I'm glad you're able to get everything off your chest with the ones you care about. That must be a wonderful feeling to be able to come clean about everything.

I loveee making new friends in my classes. Stephanie and I compared ourselves from the first semester we were at SJSU. Back then I was a lot more reserved and preferred keeping to myself. Now I don't even care anymore. If I find something amusing or I have a question about something I'll just blurt it out randomly regardless of whether or not I know the person. Then we start talking and become friends!

Now if there's no one to talk to I turn to those fill in crossword puzzles that Loc got me addicted to. I went out and bought my own book. It kills sooo much time in all my boring classes. I wonder how many more books I'll buy by the end of the semester. Total crossword puzzles completed today: 12.

My little brother comes back from his Disneyland trip TONIGHT! yay.

I'm meeting up with my group from my online Comm41 course for the first time tomorrow. I'm kinda excited/nervous.

QUESTION! For those who actually look at my pictures. Do you find my links annoying or would you prefer I keep the pictures small so you can click on whatever you want to look at?

DUDE these guys passed out free condoms in those red envelope things for Lunar New Year. How sick. But what a smart way to get word out on 'safe sex' and contacting them. haha. So um Mia pulled a Liz last week:

John makes sucha pretty girl.

Old pictures from a few weeks ago:

Tuesday, 15 February 2005

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I hope everyone enjoyed their Valentine’s day although I still think the holiday is ridiculous. Why wait once a year to show someone how much they mean to you? Why even wait until anniversaries come along? If you truly cared about that person, shouldn’t you prove it everyday? Materialistic things shouldn’t even matter. Just having the chance to spend quality time with that other person ought to be more than enough.

However, I have to admit that I had fun yesterday. Thanks for asking me to be your Valentine's day date and for buying me dinner Brian! Haven't had a real Valentine in ages, let alone gone out on the actual day. Man oh man what an adventure. At some point I ripped Brian's pants. hahahah. Hope you had a fun "typical" date.

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It’s lent again. Marleah decided to support me by giving up sweets with me. That was sweet of her considering she’s not even Catholic.

I’m not trying to convert anyone nor am I even trying to get anyone to understand my religion. All I ask is that you respect it. Why waste your breath trying to refute Catholicism, when you can just be happy for me? You have your beliefs, and I have mine. I’ve made my choice and nothing and no one can ever change that. Now more than ever I need to be strong because I devoted myself as a Godmother to one special little girl who gave me a reason to cherish life.

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I can't believe you would dare and send me something that she once used. As nice as it is, I don't want any part of her previous possessions if it could be avoided. Don't pity the things she uses and wastes and then pass it on to me. WHY would you do that? Is that what I'm worth to you? I was so naive and stupid enough to think that you would send me something out of the blues. I was too excited to notice the flaws that I called you up to thank you. It took another pair of eyes to tell me that it's been scratched and so obvious that it's been used. So what if it's been second-handed down to me? I'd rather it belong to anyone but her. How did I know it was hers? Her scent is still on it. You told me it wasn’t hers and I want to believe that. But if what you say is true, then tell me what person in their right mind would just give away something that they spent $300 on as if it was nothing so you can hand it to me? And if it was someone else's why would you need to buy me a used one? The way she spends things, it's obvious that you're not short on cash.

Every time I begin to forget the situation, you remind me of it. I know you and mom separated years ago, but just because I've gotten older doesn't mean that it hurts any less. Not only does it affect me, but the people around me. Did you even think twice about all this? Don't try to fix it by sending me a new one. I never asked you to buy it for me and I don't need or want anything. What I want is a simple phone call without you fearing that she'll listen. What I want are visits that last when you want it and as long as you want it to be without you making excuses to explain yourself to her. All I want is your love from the heart.

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Pictures from over the week:

Chef Raphael came over and cooked for the family I love it when my big bro visits.

Me and Cathyyy. I haven't seen her since graduation I think. The dog reminded me of ChouChou even though it's not a Pomeranian.

Chuc mung nam moi!

Me and Tera! Me and Loc with the Goldi-Loc shirt I made for him haha.

Saturday, 05 February 2005

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I FINALLY CLEANED MY ROOM!!! Now my mom, John, and Loc can stop nagging me about it. I think I avoided cleaning it all this time because I knew it wouldn't be such an easy task. I've been stuffing things in my closet and in my drawers and placing things all over my desk, that I really screwed myself over. In the process of cleaning it, Celine said "It looks like a tornado hit your room" haha. I got rid of SO MUCH STUFF and now I feel FREE and I can actually BREATHE and walk around in my room. My room's still too girly for me but there's always some other time to remodel it.

No one believed me when I said my room was incredibly messy so now I'll prove it. Before and after pictures:

My closet still looks the same but only I will know the full extent of how much junk I took out of it.

I even made my bed! HAHA

THIS is all the crap that came out of my room. SCHOOL papers, trash, things I never use and I want to give away.

I even got rid of so much stuff that I won’t be needing these stupid boxes anymore!

Of course there’s always some type of reward when you clean your room… Look at all the COINS and dollar bills I found!

So what did I learn from all this? As much as I'd like to keep all the things that hold some sort of sentimental meaning to me, I can't. It keeps building up over the years and soon I'll have no where to store all of them. Oh, and I think I'm sick from all the dust my room's been collecting. Blah. Now it's time to clean up the rest of the house and do my homework. Goody.

Emma says...

HAPPY VIETNAMESE NEW YEAR!! It's early but whatever.

Wednesday, 26 January 2005

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First day of school was BLAH. It was good seeing everyone again though. COLLEEN is in my Psyc class! SARAH'S new hair is awesone. The cut and the color suits her so well. I love it. I want to color my hair like her.

I saw the school's pool for the first time today. Shut up, I know I've been here for almost two years but whatever. I might join the fellas and swim once a week. John and Loc are forcing me to get out more. I love my silly friends.